Tuesday, October 18, 2011

It has been one month

I was watching Yo Gabba Gabba with Asher since for some reason he does not want to go to sleep and when I looked at the time I realized that today you have been gone for a month. It still seems like a dream that getting the call you were passing and the rush to get to the hospital over an hour away never happened. I still get the urge to call or text you on the phone. My husband lost his mother at 14 he is now 29 and has been such a blessing to me because he can relate and understand when I have my moments. Before mom passed we were planning a mother daughter day to go out and do some shopping for the upcoming holidays, but we never got that chance. A few nights ago I had a dream that her and I was in her truck and she was driving (she hasn't been able to drive in years) and she looked so young almost like she was my age (26). Mom had long beautiful curly hair and thin like she was in her 20s. She was laughing and smiling as she was so happy. In my dream all I could do was look at her in amazement and not say a word almost like I wanted to capture the moment forever. Mom was glowing! All of a sudden it was like I became aware of what was going on and I started telling myself to tell her I love her and miss her, but before I could get the words out in my dream Jason called me and I woke up. That dream will stay with me forever.

1 comment:

  1. Hugs to you! I am sorry for your loss. My father passed away in May 2011. We did not have a good relationship and I am saddened by that. There are so many days I want to pickup the phone to call him and remember he is no longer physically here, but I believe they are watching over us and our children every day! Your mom is always with you!